life...

Today i celebrate life and along with that death.  this journey we call life is filled with so much joy, memories, laughter and oh so much pain, heartache and tears.  lives are intertwined at many different levels and lengths.  

today i am remembering a best friend who was only a part of my life for six years but will forever shape who i am today and the journey that i am on.  six years today he left this earth...but in those twenty years he lived, he lived a life well.  touched so many lives and brightened so many days.  

its moments like today that i sit back and remember why i am alive.  i am reminded to love deeply and cherish the people that i get to journey this life with.  

my heartaches because i don't know the big picture, i don't know why some lives are only meant to be lived for twenty years. so many questions my heart still asks.  but i do rest in the peace that there is a bigger plan and there is a purpose.  

i am soooo insanely thankful that there is a purpose for all this pain.  there are moments when satan temps me to despair and focus on the hurt and unknown...but i know i can stand firm on the Lords promises...

‎"you give and take away blessed be the name of the Lord because all the ways of the Lord are loving and faithful...so we fix our eyes not on what is seen but on what is unseen, for what is unseen is eternal but what is seen will fade. "

"Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus

Just to take Him at His word

Jesus Jesus precious Jesus

oh for grace to trust Him more

I'm so glad i learned to trust Him

Precious Jesus Savior Friend

And i know that Hi is with me

Will be there to the end"